Turning A New Leaf

I’ve been dealing with a lot of drama lately. From losing my best friend in the world, being really sick, and having to move out of my apartment. I have the best friends in the world to lean on. My family has been there for me from point A to now, and I couldn’t ask for a better family. I’ve been really disheartened about all of this, but now I’m turning a new leaf.

I realized that I can’t just sit around and concentrate on the bad situations going on in my life. Now, I’m looking on the constructive side of things. See my best didn’t vanish; she’s still around and kicking. We finally dated, and experienced a lot of astonishing times together, and fell in love. Things didn’t work out as intended, and the saying was true “Love Will Tear Us Apart.” She still is the most incredible person I have ever encountered in my life, and we don’t loathe each other or anything like that. I can no longer think badly about our association. I learned that I have developed so much from knowing her, and that’s what she was put on this earth to do for me. Even though it’s hard to envision that we can no longer be best friends anymore, I only think about what she has done for me. She has pushed me to do so many things in life. I thank her for that, and I can’t be mad at her for following her heart. I’m looking at the bright side of the break up now, and it feels a lot better to do that, rather than think about “what if.” Even if I still do love her, I know we had our chance, and maybe one day we can be friends again. That’s alone makes me feel better about life.

Having to move away from my apartment is another burden I have to deal with. My best friend Sean Carmack is moving to Turkey, and I couldn’t be happier for him to see a separate part of the world. He’s always wanted to move away from the U.S. and this is something he will love. With him moving out, I have to move back home with the parents. Oh no, it sucks I know, but look on the bright side of this situation. I’m in school right now, and it will permit me to concentrate more on my studies. I will accumulate money, and I can travel a lot more. I will have groceries to eat that don’t consist of a microwave, and a drive-thru window. Plus I can procure all my favorite brew with out feeling guilty about paying nine dollars for a six pack. Microbreweries of Utah get ready, you stock will go up when I move back home. Last but not least I can pay off my car a lot faster than expected, then that will be another bill that I no longer have to fret about.

If you ever have a bad month or two like I have, don’t worry it will get better. I learned a lot about myself from all of this, and I ‘am stronger as a person. I look at life different now. You’ll most likely get your heart broken time and time again, but it gets easier, you’ll have to deal with taking steps back. If you’re fierce, you’ll take two more before it gets any worse. Just stay strong, and excuse yourself from the bottle, it doesn’t solve anything.

Written Under The Influence of The National's Boxer